http://callmestella.buddyslim.com Weight loss and a new healthy lifestyle Wed, 28 Jan 2009 17:00:58 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I was told last Wednesday that my husband of 20 years (in one month), is leaving me. This is not how I wanted to lose weight. I am so devastated and I can't eat. http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2009/01/28/as-if-i-wasnt-already-having-a-hard-time-eating/ It's 2:15 and I still haven't eaten. What is wrong with me? I can't seem to wrap my head around the food thing. Logic tells me that I need to eat to help burn calories, but I can't get myself to do it. I added a before picture. That alone ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2009/01/17/whats-my-problem/ to put food in my journal that I plan on eating. If you have read through my past posts, I believe I mentioned I have issues with not eating enough. I used to REALLY not eat enough, and while I still struggle with that, I have added on the new ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2009/01/12/i-guess-it-doesnt-count/ I CANNOT believe how much I weigh. Okay, I don't know that I gained eight pounds in one day, but likely the scale was wrong yesterday. I don't remember ever weighing this much. I know negative talk is generally unhealthy, but I have to be honest with myself, rather than ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2009/01/11/effing-reality-checkam-i-the-only-one-who-hates-them/ Good grief. I can't believe I am back to my original weight. Ok, not true. I can believe it. I haven't done jack to change it. My knee is still bothering me, but not enough for me to do nothing....it's become an excuse and I'm over it. I have to ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2008/06/04/fr-srsly/ Ok, so...I've been going through some personal struggles. It's all internal and I have put everything aside to deal with my emotions. I'm not generally known as an emotional person (Ice Queen is more accurate). Having said that, I have been really struggling with not contributing to the finances of ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2008/01/28/time-to-get-real/ My husband just walked out with breakfast for me. I didn't ask for it, but he really wants me to eat. Weird. Not sure what that is about. Honestly, I think it bothers him that I don't eat breakfast. Whenever he asks me if I want it, I say no, ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/12/16/sorry-for-the-second-post/ It's back to work I go. My husband and his partner are not happy with their processor. She is, however, a good salesperson. They have asked her to change positions, and have asked that I step in until they find a replacement for her. I have agreed to help them ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/12/16/high-ho-high-ho/ I swear shopping is not normally such a part of my life. My problem is, I want to get everything for everyone, which of course, I can't. Technically, I could, but then I would be paying it off for the next year. That's no fun. I have to try and ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/12/11/one-would-think-im-obsessed/ In case any of you don't know....I HATE SHOPPING!!!! I love Christmas and I love the appreciation I get from the recipients of my gifts, but I wish I could hire a shopper. Actually, that wouldn't really help enough, because I hate having to pick things out. I just don't ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/12/02/setting-the-record-straight/ In my post last night, I wasn't honest. It wasn't intentional, but now that I ponder the reality, I realize that while I didn't eat poorly while I was at my destination, it was the two day drive each way that was my undoing. I am generally not one to ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/11/28/and-so/ I am so bummed. I was pretty much sick all last week. I had a horrible headache...actually still do and didn't get in any exercise. I've had this thing since the 17th and don't know how to get rid of it. No excuses, though. Weird thing is, I didn't eat ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/11/28/unfreakingbelievable/ Ok, I'm actually driving in a rented mini-van, but the subject line sounds so much more romantic....anyway, I am going to be offline for a couple of days. I mean, I can probably quickly post food logs and such, since we have access on our phones, but it won't be ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/11/17/leaving-on-a-jet-plane/ I notice that if I post my food before I eat it, I am more apt to eat it. Does that make sense? I can think about what I should eat and don't do it, but if I log the calories and see how many more I need for the ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/11/16/interesting/ Ok, so.....I had my cottage cheese and then left to do the shopping stuff I had to do. I was fine until I needed to take my daughter to her boyfriend's house. Ok, not fine since I didn't eat until that point. What did I go and do? I got ... http://callmestella.buddyslim.com/2007/11/14/really-stupid/